Our first holiday since I found out the person I chose to marry 10 years ago and have children with had no integrity, is a liar and cheater.
It's a crazy feeling. If I hadn't have made my little discovery and made my fun phone calls to the loose woman's husband, where would be today?
Well....we probably would have been separated. I would have not been aware of the little side job going on, (IF it was still going on), the kids would have probably split up the day-- half with me and my family/ friends, and half for them going over to A's sister's house, where they hate to be because it is so loud and dirty and his family is so cold and unwelcoming.
Scary to think about that. I sit here and am bitter that he is with our family acting as if he did nothing, and my life isn't upside down, and my children's future hangs in the balance---but geez----the alternative would be worse. ? Maybe? Yes. Definitely. My babies having to go over to that house without me and feel like outcasts, and wonder why their mother wasn't there like I always had been, and wonder what is going on with their lives---that would have been worse.
Then why does this suck and I keep bringing the affair up to A today? Because it is on my mind every second. Every second. I should just keep it to myself. But I can't.
Thanks to the Lord that my family is healthy, and all present with us today. And for that, which so many others don't have---I am blessed.
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